Compassion

Madelynn

&

Aidan

They didn't come with instructions or a manual!

I asked my midwife, Julie, several times after they arrived. I look at these two gorgeous little people and I wonder how the heck am I supposed to teach them everything? It's just mind boggling sometimes and I wonder if I'm going to screw them up with all my insanity.

Then they both surprised me today~~~It was kind of magical :-)

I was changing the sheets on Madelynn's bed. I bumped my head while tucking the end in on the top bunk and I hit it hard. I felt almost immediately like I was going to throw up it was that bad. I just slipped down to the floor and leaned against the wall. Tears filled my eyes it hurt so bad! (still does 6 hours later) Aidan and Madelynn were both in the room and watched me. I didn't say anything except "ouch".

Madelynn pipes up "Sorry, Mommy!" Then Aidan toddles over and cuddles me and gives me a kiss, he doesn't give them very often (he's a bit stingy with them). Madelynn follows him and does the same hugs and kisses my head. Aidan backed up looking at me and then kissed & snuggled into my chest again and again. It was then I realized, my kids know compassion.

com·pas·sion ( P ) (km-pshn)n. Deep awareness of the suffering of another coupled with the wish to relieve it.

I have somehow managed to teach them compassion in their small time on earth. Something that many adults lack. I felt like a good parent for the first time in a long time. (I did have good teachers) Parenting, maybe I'm doing ok after all.